Saturday, September 24, 2011

Remembering Davey



Remembering Davey….
One year today, God took you away. Since that day, not a moment goes by that we don’t think of you. You were taken too soon and left behind so many. We are thankful for each day we had with you only wishing there were more. As we reflect on our memories, we laugh until we cry and we cry until we smile. You were the light of our lives and held the key to our hearts. While our dreams of the future with you vanished that day, you will forever be in our hearts. We promise that your legacy will light our future. Life takes some unexpected turns and this was one for which we could not prepare. We will survive but it will not be easy without you.

When we lose someone we love it seems that time stands still. What moves through us is a silence... a quiet sadness... A longing for one more day... one more word... one more touch... We may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before we were ready to say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget. We will see you again someday, in a heavenly place where there is no parting. A place where there are no words that mean
good-bye.
David Andrew Chavez
8/8/1986 to 9/24/2010
Forever Young

Friday, September 23, 2011

Who I was

One year ago today marks the last day of who I was. That is because one year ago tomorrow, I became who I am now.

I am now a person who knows what is it like to lose a brother. I am now a person who knows what it means to grieve. I now understand the four stages of grief and know that some times you have to take steps back before you move forward.

I now know who the real Davey was; that is who he was around his friends. Of course, I saw the tenderness he had with Raegan but I only know now the true extent of what a great uncle he was. I knew I as his "littler" big sister but now I know how much he longed to protect me.

I now understand the meaning of life is too short. And while it is too short to waste a moment, it is also to short to waste a moment on things not worthy of that moment.

I now know who I can count on to be there at anytime of the day or night. And I now know who I can't.

And while I am happy with who I am now, I long for the days of who I was....just an average sister who had a brother.