Happy 29th Birthday Davey!!

Wow, that was hard to type....29th.  Hard to believe if you were here you would almost be 30 years old!  Not a day goes by that I don't think about where you would be in your life. Would you be married? Babies?  Most of your friends have at least one baby...some have 2.  I wish that you could have experienced having your own baby but on the other hand, that baby wouldn't have it's daddy here and that would hurt too.  God knows what he is doing but I wish I did too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I miss the past and your future but most of all I MISS YOU.

  Love Mom

That Day

Memorial Day/July 4th

Decorations for both of these holidays are pretty much the same but we still do it.  Just Dad and I decorate and I think it is therapeutic for the both of us.  I wish we didn't have to decorate but it is one of the only things we can still do for you.

Mother's Day

Only one missing...  Miss you everyday but especially on days like this.  

Love you Son.

Missing you both

Barn Barn aka Barney Rubble

My precious Barney left this Earth to be with you on Sunday May 3, 2015. He fought long and hard with liver disease.  He started at a whopping 18 pounds (a little chubby) and went down to 11 pounds.  He never missed a beat or a meal and was always willing to snuggle under the covers.  I know you and Stevie were so happy when you saw him!!  I wish I could have seen that reunion. Take care of those wieners for me.  I sure miss all 3 of you.  Love Mom

Barney Rubble Chavez

2004-2015

No Tomorrow

Friends

Every once is awhile, when we go to Rose Hills we see signs that some of your friends have been there.  It could be a simple cigarette butt to a whole cigarette to empty or full beer cans.  Whatever they leave, it warms our hearts to know that someone else has come to remember you.  I believe this was left for you on 4/20......

Easter 2015

Not much happening around here.  Just missing you and wishing you were here with us.  I know you are safe and happy where you are and wouldn't want to come back if you could but that doesn't make me wish you would!!

We decorated again for Easter.... as always.  I hope you like it.  Love Mom

Reagan Turned 5!!

I can't believe that she is 5 already.  Seems like just yesterday that she was born.  Birthdays are supposed to be happy and they are but there is always that thought that you are not here on Earth to celebrate with us.   We feel your spirit but wish we could see your beautiful smiling face.

Raegan knows about you and recognizes your picture too. She knows that you are in Heaven and says that you are playing baseball with the angels!!  She does ask some questions sometimes that throws us for a loop about God and Heaven.  We hope that we are given her answers that will help her figure it all out one day.  If only she could remember the time that she spent with you and how much you loved her.  Your friends tell us that you used to MAKE them look at her picture when they got into your car.  You would be so proud of the beautiful little girl she has become.

Gramma's Birthday

Today is Gramma's  birthday.  Autumn and I went to visit...wish you could have come too. XOXOXO

Missing You

Christmas 2014

Christmas #5 without you here with us.  It is hard to believe at times but then at other times it isn't.  We go through the motions but really don't enjoy the season anymore.  Thank goodness for Raegan because if she was not here I don't even think we would have a Christmas tree!  

Of course we decorated for you again and we always will.  

We decorated Gingerbread houses again this year.  I am pretty sure that you wouldn't have come but I can still wish, right?

And then there was Christmas Eve.  Missing you as usual, especially when picture time comes.....

 Wishing you were here.

Love Mom

Cranberry Sauce and decorations

I didn't forget your cranberry sauce!  Of all things...  you liked cranberry sauce.  I guess the apple doesn't fall to far from the tree.  I wish you were here to enjoy some with us.

And of course what would a holiday be without decorations!

Happy Thanksgiving in Heaven Davey!

Halloween 2014

Another Halloween missing you but remembering all the Halloweens we did get to share.  Your first Halloween you were only 2 months old and I didn't have a costume for you so you wore a pink blanket sleeper that was Autumns and some bunny ears!!  From a football player to a clown to Men in black to Peter Pan, you were always the cutest one in my eyes.  I remember the year that you wore the scary costume and you and I scared the neighbor kids.  I can't find a picture but I think I have one some where.  Just know that you are missed everyday but holidays are the worst.

Happy Halloween

Halloween Decorations

Yes we decorated again...always.  It is one of the only things we can do for you.  People always stop by and say how nice it looks.  If we only didn't have to decorate THERE...

Love you sweet boy

Flowers

Shawn and Ashley brought us flowers in your memory today.  After a long and exhausting day both mentally and physically, to come home and find these on the porch made our day.  She couldn't have found anything more fitting

Of course we still bring you flowers.  I know I know but I need to.  Every Sunday I call the florist  and ask for blue daisy and  and blue carnations.  This time they had blue roses!! I call it "Davey Blue"

Love You Son

4 Years Without You

Hard to believe that it has been 4 years since I said good bye to you as we left for work.  So much has happened, even since last year that I don't know where to start. Life is not the same and it never will be, therefore we look at the world through different eyes.  Eyes that will never see the same, eyes that show pain, eyes that cry and eyes that even smile.  I remember the first time I laughed since you left. It was over a video of a dog of all things!  When I laughed I felt so guilty.  How could I laugh when you are not here?  It took me along time to realize that it is okay to laugh and have fun but at times I still feel guilty.  I look into crowds....looking for you.  From what I hear and read it is normal.  The hardest place is Disneyland. The Happiest Place on Earth right??  All around me are young men your age with their wives and babies.  I picture what you would have been like as a daddy and my heart breaks just knowing that I never will get to know.  I DO know you would have been an awesome daddy but also a paranoid one too!!  That's okay though because you would have learned from me and you and Autumn survived.  We all know that we can never be to careful because we don't know what tomorrow will bring.

So many people send me pictures of things that remind them of you. Mostly Batman signs and I love them all.  From Batman to 8's to 86's to 88 and all those hearts, I see them all too.  They all make me smile knowing that they are from you.  Ashley says she feels and see's you at times.  Her and Shawn are the only ones that have told me that but it doesn't surprise me one bit.  Of all your friends, those two would be the ones that I think you would mess with the most.  They are keeping your memory alive with Mia by telling her stories about you.  They tell me that she talks about you all the time and Ashley's sister Jennifer even tells Mia stories about you.  Warms my heart

Each and every day I thank God for the 24 years, 1 month and 16 days that he let me have you.  If he had told me that was all I would have and gave me a choice, I would have still chosen you.  I hold on to the precious memories that we have but long for more.  One day we will be together again and we can continue where we left off.  I love you Davey and miss you beyond words.
Love Mom

Thinking of You Today

BATSTEVE

Missing this little guy one year today.  I know you and him are having a awesome time...howling together like you used to.